you oughta know
April 5, 2008its a saturday. i woke up at 2pm. i wanna go back to bed…
so yeah, went out again the night before. i had a relapse a few days before. i convinced myself that i could go on with this week without breaking down.
who was i kidding? so i went out last night and drowned myself.
not cute.
obviously im in no position to write a coherent entry. so here’s an open letter.
dear you,
I want you to know, that I’m happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I’m sure she’d make a really excellent mother
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn’t able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you’d hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you’re still alive
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
You seem very well, things look peaceful
I’m not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn’t able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you’d hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you’re still alive
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I’m not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else’s back
I hope you feel it…well can you feel it
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
sincerely yours,
me
*yeah this is the complete lyrics of Alanis Morisette’s You Oughta Know hit…its just perfect…ok il go drown myself again..tomorow’s a sunday anyway.
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I can’t stay in bed because of the heat of the summer.
:P
Posted by Laarni at April 8, 2008, 2:41 pm