wooohooo im back! (ampff cant even think of a better title)
April 26, 2008eeeep! my last post was April 5! and its now…uhhmmm…April 26…uh yeaaahh…blech
a lot happened. if by some miracle that you still manage to drop by a few times, you’d notice that my previous posts for the past few weeks or so consists of open letters, song lyrics, incoherent-drunken-state entries, incoherent-hangover-state entries and full of shiteous excuses, excuses and more excuses.
oweh. higlights? i turned 25on the 14th! wooohoooooooooo! i celebrated it by going to work early lugging homemade palabok to feed my hungry officemates…proceeded to work on geeky stuff (its a freakin’ monday my birthday! ampff) then ended the day panic-driven and fucked up the sliding doors of our office because Andok’s was on semi-fire. Andok’s restaurant which is located just below our building. Andok’s restaurant that smogged our whole floor. but it was all very anti-climactic. Before we can even leave the building, with the sirens ringing over our heads, us choking in smoke and confused as to what direction we’ll run to, the fire department declared the fire over. pfffffttt. total fire phailure if you ask me. but with a local mall on fire just a week before and University of Baguio torched a month before, everyone is in panic mode.
so what else? oh yeah. my domain is now filled with cobwebs and dust. i was able to tranfer my archives and that’s it. lame.
things is, im up on my elbows with work. its that overused excuse bt i just realized that i spend more time in front of the computer with a working internet connection than lying down in bed. amppfff i wanna blog more.
okay im suddenly at loss of words. its a saturday. sunny saturday afternoon. im at the office on my rest day. yech.
more to come!
you oughta know
April 5, 2008its a saturday. i woke up at 2pm. i wanna go back to bed…
so yeah, went out again the night before. i had a relapse a few days before. i convinced myself that i could go on with this week without breaking down.
who was i kidding? so i went out last night and drowned myself.
not cute.
obviously im in no position to write a coherent entry. so here’s an open letter.
dear you,
I want you to know, that I’m happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I’m sure she’d make a really excellent mother
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn’t able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you’d hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you’re still alive
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
You seem very well, things look peaceful
I’m not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her
Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn’t able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you’d hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you’re still alive
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I’m not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else’s back
I hope you feel it…well can you feel it
And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
sincerely yours,
me
*yeah this is the complete lyrics of Alanis Morisette’s You Oughta Know hit…its just perfect…ok il go drown myself again..tomorow’s a sunday anyway.
