in need of vodka tonic and then some
March 25, 2008i haven’t posted in a while. there was work (which is nothing new since im a self-confessed workaholic) and there was the holy week (which was spent drinking/sleeping/eating/more sleeping) and there was my new domain (which is giving me mini migraines everytime i try to finish tweaking it)…so yeah, i haven’t posted in a while.
so…i will be free writing. meaning, i will be jumping from one topic to another while my fingers hover over the keyboard as i try to organize my thoughts while listening to my current playlist that’s been driving my bro nuts (cuz i like to play it loud on the speakers…on a loop).
my current playlist (both on the laptop & ipod):
because of you - kelly clarkson
since you’ve been gone - kelly clarkson
samson - regina spektor
worn me down - rachel yamagata
someday we’ll know - mandy moore & switchfoot
and ive discovered this NYC band through a hollywood gossip blog and ive been obsessed with their songs ever since. il talk about them later. i totally heart their music that i decided they deserve a separate entry. soon. this is a segue. il jump back to the main topic now.kk.
ooppss…but i don’t have a main topic. errr…help?
oh wait i know, let’s make my current playlist my main topic. let’s have a q&a portion with myself. could be fun.
me: why do you only have 5 songs on your current playlist?
sarah: because those are the only 5 songs i could find appropriate for whatever it is im going drama over right this moment starting last week.
me: what’s the drama?
sarah: if you read my post before the panagbenga entry, you’ll know.
me: but i don’t…
sarah: then you’re slow. like janina san miguel slow.
me: oh wait! i get it now! you’re being such an ultra sap lately, right?
sarah: just semi ultra sap. don’t get too excited.
me: whateve. move on.
sarah: where’s the question? this is a q&a portion! not a dr. phil portion!
me: move on. be happy.
sarah: …..
erm…i suddenly feel like burying myself under the sheets with my ipod and cry myself to sleep again. this q&a portion. not a good idea. i know i sound like a retard right now. but bear with me, cuz im still trying to cope. it comes in waves. im happy this minute, after ten seconds il be staring at nothing. then later on hyperventilating. crying. cursing. asking. wishing. and more crying.
im thankful i have my job…that keeps me busy and sane nowadays.
il go now. il return with a more comprehensive entry later. i need my vodka tonic so badly. or maybe some sleep. or both.
Let a thousand flowers bloom: The 2008 Panagbenga Streetdancing Parade
March 10, 2008yey! so don’t mind the uber-mushy post i just posted the other day. let’s move on to more happier times. bleh.
i spent the whole saturday morning cropping and resizing and editing the pictures the bebe took from the 2008 Panagbenga Streetdancing Competition. so yup, there were tons so i had to choose the best looking shots and figure out how to group them in an artisitc and organized manner.
and yeah, im still on the painful process of tweaking/edtiing/transferring files to my new domain so i might be blogging here for one more week or so…im having migraines…yech,
anyways, here are pictures! im still working on the Float Parade pix…enjoys! lolz ^__^
the inevitable has come
March 7, 2008only two people would understand this entry. but im posting it anyway. i had to let it out.
****
no more drinking. no more sleepless nights. no more crying under the sheets while listening to Regina Spektor’s Samson on repeat. no more staring at nowhere during long cab drives. no more too much overtime at work to keep my mind busy.
my life was turned upside down, over and beyond for the past three weeks. it was one hell of a rollercoaster ride…i knew that that one decision i made during that time would change everything. i knew that i had to hold on tight as the rollercoaster zooms through the highs and lows. it was the happiest ive felt in years, stuck in a commitment that ive gotten used to. a commitment that is synonymous to a routine, something you do everyday that whatever excitement it has in the past seemed to have faded along with the years that has gone by. the rollercoaster ride made me realize two things…
first, i can be happier if i allow it.
second, love is never enough.
they lied when they said that love makes the world go round.
im in a moment right now where im honestly hard up on focusing my mind because im suddenly overwhelmed with emotion. my brain is nowhere to be found…and my heart has full control of me…
honest to god, im scared. i want to hold on to that flicker of hope, but what if that hope changed its mind and decided to fade away as well?
ive put my heart on my sleeve shamelessly. ive believed on promises i knew won’t be kept. i hoped…god that’s the worst part…ive hoped…
i knew everything was to good to be true…
all good things must come to an end…
the happy is ready to move
March 4, 2008yey finally have my own domain! and its free! FREE! more yey!
***hugs to kharl****
and now, amidst work, i had to squeeze in editng and tweaking and transferring my archives and uploading!
update your links!
but its still under extreme constuction…wehehehe…it will be a week or two beforeits gonna be up and running.
and besides, i have yet to post my Panagbenga pix! bleh…
T.T
the i loves vodka part 2
March 2, 2008the last time i got so plastered was sometime last december.
ive just finished conducting two simultaneous 2-hour call center career orientations amidst a throbbing headache and sore throat.
gawd i can still taste the vodka i had last night.
…
so it was a saturday night and the last streetparty for the Panagbenga Session in Bloom. i downed a couple of screwdrivers and sipped on nalet’s margarita while dancing to new wave music. we then proceeded to a bar where i downed more vodka tonic. i was so stressed out from working i decided i will get wasted since i wasn’t able to do that last week.
and i did.
and it doesn’t feel good right now.
yech.
