my sweetest downfall
February 15, 2008you,
you were unexpected…an unexpected joy…a rare flicker of hope…a reason to open my eyes and finally see the truth of everything that i have right now…
i knew you since then…we had something since then…an unxplainable bond made stronger by time…a commitment to each other that may seem odd…but to us is just something both natural and innate…a force of nature…of feelings… of believeing that in this world we all have someone that is a perfect partner to our souls…
but i didn’t see that then…because for me you were just a special being that makes me smile day by day…who makes me feel that the world is such a wonderful place…i interpreted your sweet musings as mere immature teasings…
but who knew that you’d come to being like this…someone who is suddenly not afraid to bear his soul…even if the idea of rejection has come face to face with you…you continue to be brutally honest about what you feel…
yes, you have become my predicament…it is so wrong to match up with you using my wit as my only source of defense…
because im so damn afraid that a surge of too much emotion might cause me to make a wrong decision…that could hurt either me or you or him…
but im assured that whatever decision i come upon, you would accept that wholeheartedly…because that’s how you are…
and you know i love you…i always have...
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you are my sweetest downfall…i loved you first…i loved you first…beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth…
i have to go…i have to go…
me
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my life is a rollercoaster right now. im trapped in web of indecision. i started resorting to writing open letters. this the first ive had the coourage to post here. i hope its the last…
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heller ate april.. di ako makareply taena wala akong load ahahahaha heniwey, wala pa kami gano kalaking pera para sa booth na sinasabi mo dati. sayang 
pwede bang makilagay na lang ng flyer dun? kkkkk^^
Posted by erwie at February 18, 2008, 12:06 ami can’t have a final comment. i need to hear more about it to come up with a life-changing, jun lozada-like advise. 
but kidding aside, please…
tell us more about it, ms.sarah. perhaps we can help in our own tiny way/s.
hold on tight to that roller coaster ride.
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something’s so emo about this post that i can relate too, baah, its valentine’s and im sad.
Posted by alohapenny at February 15, 2008, 10:26 am