why i dint walk down the aisle…yet

yey! its been nine days since my last post and im here again getting ready to put up a new entry…wakokokoko…what a change…but a good one and hopefully since im right on track again, i'd be able to keep it going…

so nway, ive had some people asking me bout the stuff i posted last time…especially the almost getting hitched thing…wehehehe…

here's a quick rundown on what really happened:

date: 07/06/07

time: between 5:30pm - 12 something int the morning

5:30pm - i met up with my Be at our airsoft team's HQ (headquarters) after my stint as a tutor…it was friday so im already expecting that we might eat out or watch a movie….

bout 6pm - my Be arrived with kuya Noel (our team president) and i immediately wanted to go to session road or SM cuz i was really dying from starvation but both keep insisting that we stay for a while…for what reason? he can't tell me…

6:30pm something and onwards- I was becoming restless already and having tantrums so my Be decided to pop the question…so yeah, he showed me the pair of wedding rings he and kuya Noel bought and asked me to marry him the next day, 07/07/07…

…i was stunned…it was so unexpected…my Be is not the most romantic person in the world…i was literally speechless for a few minutes and that is because i was trying hard not to cry…

…i soon found out that our whole airsoft team was on the go the whole day trying to look for a Judge that will wed us the next day…they even tried to convince our City Mayor to spare a few minutes the next day but unfortunately his schedule is fully booked…

bout 7:30something onwards -  dinner at Yellow Cab…my brother's treat…but I can't eat! seriously…I actually wanted to throw up…take note that I was still in a state of shock…so while my brother and my Be were enjoying their pizza, I was staring at mine while smoking nonstop…my Be was able to talk to one of our close friends who is now based in Cabanatuan and works for DILG…he's got a lot, and i mean a LOT, of politician contacts who owe him a favor…my Be thought that if he can get someone in Cabanatuan to wed us, then we'll go down there first thing in the morning, just him and me, to get married…

bout 9pm something - we arrived home…may dad called…he gave his blessings since he's known since day 1 that we have plans of getting hitched although it was for next year…he talked to both me and my Be…i almost cried..

bout 10:30pmsomething onwards -  my friend from Cabanatuan called…he's got a Judge who can wed us, but only for a limited time so we have to contact him ASAP first thing in the morning if we decide to go with the wedding or not…

bout 11pm onwards - I was at my brother's room…staring at the rings…my Be joined me and it was when everything was calm and quiet again that I cried…i cried for reasons i can't explain…i cried maybe because im scared…and happy…and scared…and did i say scared?

…i threw up…uhm yeah…kinda gross but i threw up after crying…i hope there's some sort of scientific or psychological explanation to this…

bout 12pm onwards - we finally went to sleep…we were both tired and we've already decided on it..

…the reason we decided not to forego the wedding after all the hullabaloo is because of me…i decided not to…not because im scared of the idea of being a married woman but because of a deeper reason…

…the things is, i really want my dad to be there on my wedding day…even if we say that it was just a simple civil wedding, its still the most important day of my life…and i want my dad to be there when it happens...i want him to hold me and hug me before i say my I Do's….his presence will mean so much to me and i really can't take the idea of getting hitched without him physically there…

…my Be understands this so there's really no big issue…he knows how special my bond is with my dad and he doesn't want to stand in the way…

…so there, i dint get hitched because of that special reason…but im still totally super excited to get married next year!