hello bright and shiny

May 30, 2007

its been 4 weeks…a month since my last post…

 

a lot has happened…

 

a lot has changed…

 

ive changed…

 

first off, im no longer a call center slave…im no longer chained to a desk for 10 hours a day/6 days a week wasting my life…ive finally had the courage to give it up…braving all consequences, i resigned and vowed never to go back to a life of monotony, stress and pressure…i wanna live life, and yes, im finally living life again….

 

this happened not more than 3 weeks ago…i decided not to write about it then because during that time, i really didn't know what i wanna do with my life…i was still in a sea of turmoil and confusion but beneath that all, i was also free and at peace…but i knew that i can't be a bum forever…i can't be watching television and Grey's Anatomy for weeks and weeks…i can't be sleeping my eyes out all the time…i can't be on vacation mode my whole life…i just waited for the right moment to live again…

 

and while waiting, i thought of reviewing my life as a corporate slave for the past 2 years…i went through my archives and reminisced all the anger and frustrations i had….

 

i remembered all the work-induced craziness and screaming my head off day by day…

 

i remembered senti moments, going to hell and back while at the office…

 

i remembered the story of the assuming clipboard lady and the pop-up massacre saga…

 

and of course, the endless drama of the i-hate-this-job entry…

 

there's software madness and waiting for a miracle in moments of sheer stress

 

oh and did i ever tell you about the cyborg that finally came back to human form?

 

and all those frustrations wherein even if i tried so hard it didn't matter at the end…

 

there's the mandatory weekly ranting that goes along with hell week…and why going on break 4 minutes early is important…

 

and lastly, who can forget my turning points? when i spoke about the dreaded 3-D's and the infamous dark and twisted vs. bright and shiny entries…

 

it was gradual but yes, COURAGE hit me in the face at some point…i finally had the COURAGE to move on with my life…do what ive always wanted to do and become what ive always wanted to become…

 

im finally a WRITER again…

 

not some an assuming writer whose work for the previous 2 years has been limited to posting blog entries…

 

im finally a WRITER again…

 

how?

 

Three weeks into my bum moments, i was givena chance to write for a local Business Newsletter…not only that, i was offered to edit it! so yeah, bum-girl suddenly becomes Editor-In-Chief of a periodical…

 

and life's not through with me…

 

i've always wanted to teach writing…creative writing…to be able to impart a skill which i believe can be honed through practice and continuous positive urging… 

 

i was given a chance to teach English to young Korean students. at first i thought that its gonna be difficult due to the language barrier…but i was dead wrong…it was the most fulfilling job i have so far…to be an instrument in helping someone is such a gift…it feels good everytime my students are able to answer my questions or if they're able to write good paragraphs and especially when they themselves let me know that the lectures i give out are clear and precise…and such sweet people! all my assumptions about Koreans went down the drain…they're just a bunch of carefree and easy-going people in the outside but inside, they have good hearts and deep souls…before when i worked at the call center, i had to push myself to go to work…but now, i look forward every morning…i look forward to teaching…i look forward to spending another day with my students…

 

yes, ive finally become bright and shiny Meredith Grey…