drama queen makes a list and gives out the date

things im planning to achieve by friday this week:

1. have my hair fixed (note to self: never ever self-decapitate one's hair eveerrr.)

2. buy gift for my Be's brother's wedding before we go down to manila this saturday.

3. buy something to wear for the wedding (panic shopping part 2)!

4. clean-up the whole apartment and do every bit of laundry lying around on friday.

5. bake something  (i just wanna take out the urge to bake something out of my system)!

well its not the end of the world naman sa friday  but we're goin down manila na kasi on saturday afternoon for my Be's brother's wedding and i don't wanna leave the apartment all messed up cuz sobrang  hassle yun when we get back all tired tapos the place would look like nobody lived on it for 50 years (yeah exag lang). 

besides that, saturday morning pa lang haggard na cuz im sure may listahan na ng stuff na kelangan bilhin for the folks at manila….magmumukha nanaman akong turista (aaarrgghhhh) but what can we do? once in a while na lang kami umuwi ni Be sa kanila so ayun na nga…haaayyyy kilo kilong strawberries and lettuces at iba pang ka-gulayan im sure…but anyway like i said, minsan minsan lang naman so pagbigyan na. 

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may dramang nangyari the other night sa bahay. i won't dwell on the specifics kasi sobrang babaw ng reason. anyway, me and my Be were on our way home from the hospital cuz one of our airsoft friends was hospitalized the day before. we had an argument on the way home wherein nag walk-out ako diretso sa bahay. sya naman nagliwaliw muna for an hour or something like that then umuwi rin sya sa bahay. that night was the first, after almost 3 years of living together, that we slept on separate rooms. as in mala-The Break-Up ang drama.  we've had arguments before pero usually one of us ang hindi makatiis so we always end up tabi pa ring matulog. i don't know what happened that night but i woke up the next day alone in our bed tapos sya tulog na tulog pa rin sa spare room namin, in short natiis namin ang isa't isa the whole night. anyway long story short, after that incident it suddenly makes getting up from bed and untangling ourselves from each other all the more difficult for both of us every morning when we wake up. yung one night na yun na hindi kami tabi matulog did something…parang wake up call that if we keep on arguing about petty things, it will just mount up until such time na mapagod na kami na kahit gaano namin kamahal ang isa't isa, there will come a time that we'd rather quit trying to make the relationship work than die trying. but then, the weird thing is that we both felt like we just overcame a major hurdle in our relationship. parang we unconsciously tested each other. honestly, we've both been feeling like the relationship is in a rut for the past few months and sometimes conversations about breaking up keep resurfacing tuwing may maliliit kaming arguments. but anyway, i now know that we're waaaayyyy past that stage of our relationship and as a result, we came out stronger than ever…

and to add icing on the cake, we've finally settled on a definite date.

~  6 January 2008~

finally…