that’s why i am a girl

i decided not to post that article.

april, i know you’re so looking forward to it but its funny cuz the night after i posted that teaser, we had a talk. seriously, we had a heart-to-heart conversation, if that’s what you call me telling him how ive been feeling lately…that ive been feeling unsecured with the relationship…that there’s a paranoid monster lurking inside me and ready to rip out a constant stream of nagging on why ive been clutching on my Paranoid Girlfriend of the Year award. i initiated, he sat down and said he’s ready to listen. and of course, being the drama queen that i am, i cried. im such an emotional bitch but im scared to death and i can’t help it.

anyway, ive been feeling lightheaded after that talk and i don’t know if it is supposed to be a good thing. and besides, i just realized how effing pathetic i am.

i think its all the stress/pressure from work. i think its not being able to spend a complete and decent weekend with him because i had to come to work.  i think its because the wedding was postponed (i stress, POSTPONED and not cancelled). i think its because im just scared shit to lose him…this…us…

purging over, time to move on.

pahabol: besides, im still a girl ^____^

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ive just rediscovered the wonders of the world wide web. well not literally, because im tech support for a DSL company based in the U.S. so i deal with all kinds of migraine-inducing problems regarding our customers’ internet connection. i like surfing the net but not scouring the net, if you know what i mean. i would just absent-mindedly surf from one site to another or simply content myself with blogging, checking emails, chatting, checking out my Friendster and the random visits to other people’s blogs. and due to these random visits, i started to have an affair…with Food Blogs, that is. i love to eat. i love to cook. i love dining out. so my sudden discovery of all these wonderful, hunger-inducing food blogs have captivated me and stole my time away from chatting, emailing and yes, blogging. and because of them, i was so inspired that since i really love to both cook and eat, i decided that maybe its about time…my food blog is now on the making so watch out for it!