an apple a day drives the doctor away
March 28, 2006i could now feel my almost 3 weeks 1-cup-rice-plus-fruits-and veggies-per-day diet. at work ive been munching on nothing but creamed crackers (the likes of Magic Creams and Rebisco Crackers) plus lots and lots of water and of course my all time addiction: lipton green tea. i tried, really tried, to do pilates at home following a perky two-toned exercise guru…but i always end up snoozing on my exercise mat. pathetic. so il do my fat-shedding the other way: killer diet. it wasn’t difficult for me because i started right after i got sick. it was a weird thing. the week after i got sick, i had zero appettite. i had no taste for all those recipes i myself cook all the time. for the first 3 days after i got sick, i can’t get past 3 spoonful of rice with ulam. so i end up eating a banana or an apple which surprisingly makes me feel full for the next 8-10 hours. geebee is worried due to the sudden change of my eating habits. it was an extreme kind of change. from hungry-and-shoving-food-in-my-mouth-every-minute to the-mere-smell-of-cooked-meat-makes-me-want-to-vomit. my mom advised me to add fish into my diet. and so i did, i have fish every other day and the dizzy spells ive been having went away. and now, after almost 3 weeks, i feel a change. a loose change, literally and specifically in my pants. im liking it.
you might think that im a vain person. im not. this is a long-time overdue thing that ive promised myself in order to erase a certain frustration of not being able to wear the clothes that i used to wear. those same clothes that are now cramped inside my closet for almost a year. clothes ive painstaikingly acquired for years. clothes i felt so comfortable wearing day after day. im not materialistic, im doing this for self-fulfillment. its not just the clothes. its the feeling of being able to move around in my jeans and tank tops and shorts and multicolored sando’s…i want to feel free from shabby sweatshirts and and drawstring pants and ponchos. i want to be me again. and im dead sure of myself il achieve that. and besides, who wants to look like a suman in her wedding dress?! horror. not me. definitely not me.
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just finished reading 2 Dan Brown books in 3 weeks. Deception Point and Angels & Demons. no special reason. im not really a fan of Dan Brown, although i read The Da Vinci Code out of pure curiosity. so it follows that the reason i read his 2 other books is surprise, surprise…out of pure curiousity. and il be reading his other last book, Digital Fortress and after that he’s history.
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apologies to floflo and all the other guys that ive promised to link up…been crazy/busy at work…honest…ive been raving to change my lay-out again…floflo, promise you’re the first on my list when i refresh my links…^_^
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well…actually im in the process of rebuilding back my old template. the summery one. teehee. give me a week. a week. weeeheee. ^_^
software madness: a sequel
March 24, 2006i didn’t count on this new software to freeze up on me and go hang-time-happy on my work PC. but it did. and it made me feel utterly helpless. well i can go ahead and troubleshoot with eyes closed and a notepad to type in my notes but…it just doesn’t feel right. i love the feel of clicking on tabs, pulling drop-down menus, opening window after window and saving file after file…yeah im a geek. ive become a geek. its not pretty.
anyway, i had 25 outstanding calls using the new software. and today is day 2. on my previous post i said that by day 3 i will be this software’s master…but i guess that won’t turn out as ive hoped because by day 2, im still not able to use some of its features due to its hang-time-happy moments. sucks. its breaking my geeky heart. oh well, i still have a week.
and by the way, ade, id really love to dwell on what this software is about but im simply at loss for the appropriate words. just try googling SIEBEL or SIEBEL SOFTWARE and it should give you some definitions and hopefully a clear view about it. teehee.
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april 1! yihee! we’ll be moving in our new apartment on april 1! exciting!
software madness
March 21, 2006i said that we’ll be using the software next month. i lied. we’re using it now. now! as in NOW NA! major stunner.
#1 we just got out of training yesterday
#2 we only had 3 days for training/lecture
#3 you only learn 25% in training, 75% is learned once you’re navigating the new stuff
#4 either i chatted/browsed/blogged/texted/slept during the training period
#5 im still clueless and im using instinct instead of knowledge to survive using this new software
understanding how the software works is easy, navigating is a toughie. there’s too many tabs to click. too many drop-down menus. too many options. so little time to linger and practice. and like we’ve always experienced, the best way to learn is to experience it. its either you succeed and shine or crash and burn. so far ive had 14 calls using the new software. its pretty cool. i mean, its a software that integrates all information and tools in one screen and all you need to do is click on a particular tab or button in order to do what you have to do. now its what-to-click which is the hard part. one wrong click and you’ve got yourself a ticket to hell. in other words, supervisors will be all around you, pawning allover you. so im extra careful. i don’t want to catch attention. i want to do things right. today im this software’s slave, but in 3 days i want to be its master. yiheee.
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feeling a little perky today. cuz its a 2-day off! wooopeeedoooo! we come in again thursday night. or rather, our next shift will be friday 12am-9am. not bad. not bad at all.
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im putting titles on my entries again. i dunno what drove me. just felt like it.
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what if you wake up and im not there?
il go back to sleep, dream of you and hope never to wake up again…
theme days, shmeme days
March 20, 2006it’s theme day to day at the office.
theme: corporate attire.
yeah. thing is, we don’t have a dress code here at the office. you can come to work in your pyjamas and nobody would give you a second look. its kind of a perk for us. i mean, you don’t need to worry whether your pants are pressed right or does your polo match with your necktie or is your shoes sparkly enough. only supervisors walk around in polo’s and neckties and sparkly shoes. so when our trainor (for that new software) decided that our last day should be themed, he picked the most B-O-R-I-N-G theme. corporate attire. i mean, where’s the challenge???? we used to have themes such as gothic or mardi gras or halloween or pyjama party…but corporate attire??? where’s the challenge? besides, other people wear corporate attire everday. all i need to do is dig up my old stuff i used to wear in college for my broadcasting and PR classes. ZZzZZZZZzZZZzzzzzzzZZZ.
anyway, yeah, today is last day of our 3-day software training. meaning after that its back to the real world. argh.
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we’re moving apartments this month. found the perfect 2-bedroom apartment just yesterday. im excited!
back from the dead
March 18, 2006i was sick for 6 days.
6 days of delirious on/off fever. 6 days of pounding pain in my head. 6 days of not being able to say anything just because it takes a whole lot of effort just to utter a single word.
6 days of pure agony…misery…a slice of hell.
i was sick with acute bacterial pharyngitis (in short: sore throat from hell) which caused me the high fevers and painful headaches. i took an antibiotic for 3 days that are so big they look like those white buttons you see sewn on labgowns that are very hard to swallow. 3 days and it didn’t work. it was replaced with 2, i repeat, 2 antibiotics that when taken in together makes you wanna throw up every 30 minutes. but they worked. and after 48 hours, my fever is gone and hallelujah, i can talk again!
i was scared all the time. cuz the doctor said that if those last 2 antibiotics hadn’t worked they’d had to inject another antibiotic on me for 5 days (1 injection per day), and that costs a freakin’ lot! and that is scary!
second, they might take the option of an operation, which i assure you, i have no dreams of going through. its just too…too…scary. i mean, normally people get operations for their heart or stomach or kidneys…but throat?! its not…not…normal…i guess.
lastly, i talk for a living. point taken? i rest my case.
nevertheless, im a lot better now…that explains why i came to work yesterday and took an outstanding 24 call despite the fact that i had to hit the mute button on my phone every 5 minutes because i had to take a sip of water because if not i might end up coughing allover my headset and probably scaring my customer thinking she called the underworld.
and yes, im crazy…cuz even if my medical certificate says i have to take atleast 3-5 days rest before going back to work, i still came to work. i know, this is how we are. we crazy workaholics. ugh.
but right now on my second day after my 6-day hiatus, me and my team are just relaxing. we’re off the phones for 3 days. we’re currently undergoing a 3-day training brainstorming on a new software we’ll be using soon here at work. well…soon is an understatement because soon is next month. yeah i know, very dumb but that’s how americans are. and like what they say, technology grows by the second and we don’t want to be left behind. so yeah, it beats taking in calls from ass-pissed customers who can’t view paris’ box office sex scandals.
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geebee is currently into war games. airsoft guns. fatigues. tactics. big guys trying to kill each other with pellets. im not that crazy with it. it actually drives me crazy. oh well, if he’s enjoying it then…its better than seeing him attached to the couch playing PS all afternoon.
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my diet is currently settling. im losing appetite day by day. i can’t even finish a cup of rice anymore! im seeing a ray of hope. aahhh…i can feel my old size 25/26 jeans right in my skin.
people can say crazy things
March 10, 2006i had the scariest night in my life.
i woke up at 11pm only to discover myself trapped inside a pitch black room. silence is everywhere. i could hear nothing but the loud thumping of my heart and the shallow sound of my breathing. in a split second i realized i was inside my room. our room. and im alone.
i quickly jumped out of bed and opened the bedroom door only to find out that the living room is the same eerie pitch black. there were even no lights outside the front door. at that very minute, i could feel sweat forming inside my palm and goosebumps popping all over my body.
im alone. all alone. and it scared me to death.
im used to waking up to either geebee’s hugs and kisses while he playfully urges me to wake up for work. or i would wake up to find him slouched on the living room sofa fumbling with his airsoft guns.
but last night, i woke up to an empty house. it was disorienting.
#1 i received no text messages whatsoever on geebee’s whereabouts
#2 no missed calls
#3 no nothing
it took me a good 10 minutes to pull myself together and hurry to my mom’s house. my brother’s still awake and glued to the television and he verified that he did not see geebee pass by their house towards our apartment. i think he saw how scared i looked. he offered to accompany me back home. i shook my head no and totttered back to an empty house. i sat on the sofa. i sat very still, staring at the wallclock. then little by little, a strange feeling began to wash allover me. slowly, i felt my heart constrict. i was hyperventilating. i was in panic. mute panic. i just froze…couldn’t move…mind racing to a series of what if’s…
what if he had an accident?
what if some crazy drunk bastards got him wile walking alone?
what if he was trapped inside their office, suffocating to death?
what if he was abducted by aliens?
what if…
i was irrational already. but you couldn’t blame me. i stood by him for almost 2 months when he was hospitalized. same thoughts. same series of what if’s…
what if the operation fail?
what if the docotors had a wrong diagnosis?
what if his body do not respond to the medicines?
what if…
it was hell thinking of the what if’s. why can’t he send a single text?! just one measly text to say where he’s at or what he’s doing or even a HI would make me happy at that very minute. but no. my cellphone lay silent beside me, as if mocking me. i was ready to faint.
then i heard somebody. the doorknob turned and there he is. you would’t belive my reaction into seeing his face.
i was stunned.
then i broke down.
i cried…and cried…and cried….and cried…
would you blame me?
then all i could feel was his warm embrace. he need not to explain. im just so relieved he’s home. i don’t care where he was. as long as i know he’s sitting right beside me. then after a few minutes. i stopped, stared at him and just blurted out the most crazy thing,
“tangina mo! sa susunod na gawin mo yun wag ka nang magpakita sakin! gago ka!”
and geegee just smiled. i was worried. worried to death. and he knows it. i guess it made him feel special…and more…
“sabi ko na eh. mahal mo kasi ako.”
crazy love.
March 3, 2006
has it been almost two weeks since i last blogged? seems so. uh-oh. sounds like an overworked corporate slave decided to be busy for more than a week and neglect to rant and rave online. so yeah, i was busy. and ummm yeah, im an overworked corporate slave.
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the past week has been crazy. last weekend was my most-awaited 2-day off. i was awake for 30 hours starting friday afternoon until saturday night. i know, it was insane, but i loved every moment of it. felt like i downed a whole bottle of uppers. i was hyperactive and jumping around (not literally). come sunday i was asleep the whole day. from 9am to 8pm straight. unbelievable.
so here was my itinerary:
02/24/06 friday
5:00pm: woke up after barely 6 hours of sleep.
6:00pm: met up with geebee for a quick dinner.
8:00pm: sat down for an hour on the VIP section (main reason why i agreed to go) of that pop concert we attended waiting for the band finish making everything sound right. it was annoying. #1, the ticket says show start at 7pm and by 8pm they’re still trying to fix the sound system. #2, the concert was held on the open athletic field and its no fun to sit frozen for 1 hour watching some band do a soundecheck. and #3, they’re not a good band. not that im an expert on bands but a good band should have you nodding or tapping your foot or singing with them even if it was just a soundcheck, right? right. so after what felt like a kadillion years, the concert finally commenced. it was okay. geebee was with me so i enjoyed it. we spent half the time tickling each other. it entertained us more than watching the concert itself.
11:30pm: concert ended and my coach was calling me on my phone. im supposed to log in for work at 11pm!
02/25/06 saturday:
12:00am: i was on my way to the office and yes, i was 1 hour late. good job.
9:00am: log out from work! time to celebrate panagbenga!
10:00am: was stuck in traffic for a good 30 minutes due to the ongoing fluvial parade and streetdancing to celebrate the panagbenga 2006.
1:00pm: me and geebee dedided to get out of the house for some late lunch. by the time we got to town, session road was still overflowing with people! so instead of heading to SM, we sneaked into a side street, chinese cafeteria that serves that best peking-duck style chicken and porkchops! i ate a whole plate of chicken i felt like bursting!
2:30pm: was supposed to head to SM already (because i wanted to watch Close To You because i wanted to sit on an air conditioned cinema for 2 hours and watch without thinking and because i like to stare at Sam Milby for at least 2 hours to finally take him out of my system), but changed minds again when we finally stepped back to session road only to find a thick throng of tourists wearing knitted BAGUIO bonnets and holding walis tambo and baskets of strawberries and taking pictures every 5 steps have invaded my beloved quite little city. i don’t hate tourists. i just like my saturday afternoons spent walking up and down an almost empty session road wearing my pambahay cargo shorts and flip flops while eating ice cream. so with a stroke of there-is-really-nowhere-else-to-go, we dropped by our favorite dvd shop and bought instead Jarhead, The New World and Zathura. sped to watson and bought that lavender and virgin coconut hair spa cream we’ve both been salivating on, rushed to the nearest grocery to buy pasta for dinner and hurried to the safety and quiet of our apartment.
6:00pm: the start of a 3-movie marathon. Jarhead was playing while i whipped tagliatelle and garlic bread for dinner. The New World came next which i slept through halfway. My senses were awakened by the time Zathura was playing. by past 12, i felt faint so we decided to call it a night.
30 hours. no kidding. it was insane. reason why this weekend, we promised each other we’ll stay home and order take outs. no going out. yes, no strolling out especially that session road is closed for the yearly Session in Bloom party. it will take us utmost self-discipline to stay stuck in our apartment when we know street parties are being celebrated at every corner of session road. i think il just sleep. yeah. 30 hours was too much. il just sleep this saturday. wish me luck.
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our schedule for this week was 2am-11am. i hate it. we hated it. i can’t sleep in the afternoon. i was losing too much sleep. i collapsed yesterday due to lack of sleep. it was scary. at first i felt dizzy, like the floor’s giving way and my knees felt like jelly. and before i knew it, i blacked out. scary. my brother found me slumped on out living room floor, he had to drag me to bed. oh yes, he did not panic. he knew i was working like crazy. good think i didn’t bump my head. OMG, what am i turning into?
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just to prove how ive forgotten to take care of myself, i forgot to wear earrings to work. i never ever forget wearing my earrings. never. ever. not even when im late 30 minutes to school when i was in college. never even when im cramming up for exams. never even when i was in full panic mode on my thesis defense day. never even on my first date with geebee. so when i finally forgot to wear earrings to work, i know something’s wrong. i must reward myself with a hair spa next payday. the works.
