i am not ebenezer scrooge female version

im typing this entry down with approximately 30 minutes of sleep as of december 26, 2005. its december 27, 2005 at 5 in the morning at work. im half crazy, half miserable. again. i love it.

im supposed to be on a sick leave. but decided to act stupid and come to work. besides, il be off on a 3-day weekend for the new year. going down to manila to get a life. hopefully.

well christmas celebration for us is a so-so event. again. this year. i was sick last week. doctor’s diagnosis: Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. surprise, surprise. so i was slaving myself to work. so here’s a result for all that overtimes and headaches and fucked-up mornings. and to top that, i now have Chronic Chondritis topped with something else (i have problems understanding my doctor’s handwriting on my medical certificate). so now, im taking tons of meds and scheduled for an ECG, CBC and all other medical stuff they call Laboratory Exams where they poke out some blood or tissue or whatever from your body so they could have somthing to put under their microsocopes. hail to science and technology!

anyway, we had a simple noche buena. simple because it consisted of me, my mom, my brother, sister and geebee and a bottle of good fruity red wine. i ate till i felt like bursting (which is not new) and drank till i felt like going faint. i was impossible. remember, i was sick that night. but its christmas. i tried my best to be merry. well we still had fun. we (me and geebee) ended up watching a dvd marathon at our apartment afterwards while my brother and sister were stuck with the PS and my mom…well my mom just stayed up with them.

it was boring. i miss the old christmases. with grand family reunions. lots and lots of crisp bills they throw around at you. noisy little brats running around screaming christmas carols. it was different then.

i feel old.

i miss my dad. so much. he wasn’t able to come home. work had him tied up. i miss him on christmas day.

anyway, me and geebee were still able to wake up at 6 am to attend the 7 am christmas day mass at the Baguio Cathedral. Contrary to popular belief, there were only a few people who attended the morning mass. we were seated near the front, so the layman scrambled up to us to take the wine and host to the altar during offertory. we were both overwhelmed. its an amazing experience. its christmas day. december 25. and we were to offer the wine and host on the christmas day mass. together. we both wished geebee’s dad was there to take our picture. its worth a picture.

but all in all, even if i sound really miserable, i still enjoyed this christmas. promise.