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this is final.

i.PH will remain as keeper of my rants and raves and heartaches and happies and disappointments and dreams since i officially decided to commit myself to blogging on September 2005.

This month is the 4th Anniversary of my Summer Dreamin’ blog…my online journal that has kept me sane while dealing with the reality that is work and life.

4 years…i myself am amazed.

I’ve attempted to close this down early this year when i got my domain…but for some reason i found myself drawn to the happie that is i.PH.

I’ve now decided to take some responsibilty and so i forge on to deal with my own domain.

But im keeping this i.PH account.

it will contain all my adventures and misadventures for the past 4 years…

thank you i.PH!

^____^’

i will now be moving on to http://happysarah.net

when i grow up i want to do nothing but sleep

its only tuesday and it feels like friday…pfffttttt. i should’ve posted an entry yesterday but in the flurry of things, i completely forgot. ive been hounded by 2 major headaches since monday. and here they are:

my first headache is this module that ive been trying to work on since this weekend (take note that trying is the keyword here because i went drinking last saturday and dozed off the whole day sunday..lolz). so yeah, the deadline for said workshop module for Caltex was due yesterday at 3pm, i beat the deadline and presented the module at 4pm. client wants this and that, client wants to add this to that, client is hard to please, client wants a quickie workshop and i don’t.

now client wants a new module by 3pm today. i was finished by 12nn. its 2:52pm and im dreading for client to want this and that all over again because im tired and im sick of searching the www for icebreakers. yech. thank god for giant strawberry slurpees on days like this.

my second headache is this other research/module/migraine-inducing paperwork i was originally given a deadline for tomorrow, but since our client on headache #1 wanted a new module, my deadline is now moved for friday. yey.

this headache is for our new program we’d be opening soon and im in charge of that program. its a visual graphics design class. we’ll just cover the basics. but of course before we can start with that we have to secure a permit from TESDA  (Technical Education and Skils Development Authority). and the way for us to secure a permit is to submit a paperwork containing our Course Design and Modules we’ll be using which has to be approved.

i only have the title. and an idea of the Modules….what Course Design what? huhuhu.

so now you understand why im dead tired on the second day of my work week. ampffff. i wish its saturday already.

btw, here’s my workspace yesterday…ciao!

i can hasz vodka tonic

what if someone, other than your significant other, says: “what is life without you?”

…

so this is how emotional suicide feels.

i feel used.

time to move on.

…

…

…

that’s why i don’t like to drink…haha!

my very rare 3-day weekend ended today. and i wasted the whole morning of the third day comatose in bed. pfftt.

so whatever happened to my other 2 days?

Day 1: Spent the whole morning moaning in bed because a) im was having acid attack due b) to a drinking spree the night before c) because i had a super light dinner d)and thus im vomiting acid straight from my innards..ewwe, i know.

i was okay by late afternoon and since ive digested nothing but Gatorade and antacid tablets from 6Am-2PM, the searing pain was replaced by that of hunger. went off to have my dose of fried chicken then cheeseburger and went home. ampfffff.

Day 2: Spent the whole morning cooking Carbonara to give away at the bebe’s office since it was his birthday 2 weeks ago. 2.5 kilos of Carbonara. 

no white-sauce pastas for me for at least 3 months. yech. oh btw, i accept orders. lulz.

Day 3: Spent the whole morning comatose in bed. woke up at 1pm. satisfied my tuyo and sinangag cravings. then sat in front of the laptop from 6pm-12mn, except for a 3-minute break to eat dinner. lulz again.

-_______-’

okay, here are the pix from last friday night’s drinking spree.

because im a workaholic

friday! the week flew by so quickly…and ive still got tons to do! huhuhuhuhu.

nway, i actually have tons of pictures related to stuff that happened this week. but im painfully trying to squeeze in resizing them to be ready for uploading. huhuhu. maybe tom since its a saturday.

and its now 7pm, im still here at the office…and i think i have to go home…lolz.

 more tom!

xOxO

xOxO to my happiness <3

online shopping for the bored

okay, in my attempt to blog more (again), i end up taking random pix of myself and stuff whenever im dying of boredom here in the office. yeah, lame, i knoowwww. lolz.

nway, bought a new pair of gold ballet flats last night while i was out with the bebe. found it in a vintage shop. yey for me.

also, here’s a pic of my desk at work. i assure you, this is the un-messiest its been in weeks. haha.

(click on the image if u can’t read the labels)

and yeah, ive started playing Red Alert. hahahaha. old school strategy game. im lovin it. u don’t know Red Alert? pfffftttt. 

and im getting addicted to online shopping. this is bad.

okay have to go now. more tomorrow. im done for today.

nokia vs samsung

zomg i can’t believe im back to blogging! lolz.

nothing interesting happened today…been glued in front of my PC the whole day except once in the morning to lecture on one of my classes. so what did i do the whole day attached to my computer? nothin much…did business emails, some personal emails, twittering, plurking, blog surfin’, some research for a new project, chatting…downloading stuff…lolz. oweh that’s it. some random pics here to go with this random post.

lunch at 4pm: kfc original burger and fries. yes that’s my desk. lolz

stuff to be fixed. pfffftttt.

my new Dell cellphone. harhar.

lolz. its my nokia phone. got the dell stick-on from a friend working in a cal center. he got it from one of their PC’s.

my new phone theme. ^_^

cuteness.

testing my newly installed Safari browser. Researching on a new project.

Incase you wanna see my desktop. yes im narcissistic. shut up.

Ym convo with a friend over MacAirs.

my friend’s wedding ivite. with my name on it.

yes, my name.

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh…

omg i gotta lose weight i less than a month.

i haven’t RSVP’s yet. mayve after i ose weight. haha!

i just realized that my samsung phone’s resolution is way, waaaaaaaaaaaayyyy better than that of my nokia phone. yeah like anybody cares. ampppffff.

 oh well, goin now. back to my twittering and plurking. ^___^’

back and about

i haven’t blogged in over two months!  time to whip out those excuses! lolz. i feel weird typing this one out. ive tried several times to post something but i always end up logging out and going back to my work. yech. ive been swimming in work for the past two months that i’d rather not blog about it. there’s actually an entry i wrote bout a month ago which ended up on my drafts folder and never got to see the light of day. found it yesterday when i was cleaning up my files and folders so i decided to post it. here it is:

ive been wanting to update for a while now. but thing is, ive been awfully swamped with work. matter of fact, there’s been a lot of things ive been wanting to do for the past few weeks. im too tired to write in paragraphs so here’s a simple list:~ play Airsoft. haven’t played in months. i need my BB rush.

~ watch a movie. inside a movie house. for real.

~ go shopping. buy a new pair of pants. and shiny, red patent flats. and shorts.

~ bake my signature peanut-butter cookies.

~ cook a decent meal for the bebe and my bro. like my version of Cordon Bleu.

~ make fresh pasta.

~ go on a 5-day vacation leave.

quite a list, eh? now, here’s a list of why it would be impossible for me to do any for the next few weeks.

~ i’m now OIC for Public Relations.

~ ive got 6 tarpaulin lay-out jobs waiting for me.

~ i have to overhaul our company brochure on both content and lay-out.

~ prepare mock lay-out for our quarterly company newsletter.

~ finish editing all our video presentations for marketing

~ lay-out for workshops powerpoint presentations.

~ lay-out for lectures powerpoint presentations.

~ im handling 2 classes right now for CCIS (Call Center Industry Skills).

~ our marketing relations assistant recently resigned, meaning i have to help out on marketing stuff for the company since i used to be the OIC for Marketing.

~ i’m dying.

lolz. see? im breathing and living on work. its nuts. im waiting for my dad to come home for a short 10-day vacation leave anytime soon and im planning to file for a leave when that day comes. in a month or so. i hope. bleh.

i also have tons of pictures. since i still manage to go out, visit the folks at our la union place and see friends. im a workaholic, not an anti-social.

but haven’t found time to upload said pictures yet. yech.

btw, we have a new pet. a black rabbit. his name is Mr. Paj and he loves to eat. and drink beer. lolz. pictures soon.

of the list i wanna do, ive managed to  cross out  2: watch a movie and go shopping. pffffttt.

i did manage to finish overhauling the company brochure (with the help of the bebe’s super lay-outing powers), video editing, lay out for presentations and all that geeky stuff. and yes, im still dying. lolz.

right now, im handling not only the  CCIS classes but as well as the CCTech (Call Center Technology) classes. yay. -___-’ 

and now i have to come to work wearing something corporate atleast from monday-thursday. ampf. i miss my jeans-and-sneaker-wearing days when i was solely a Marketing person. huhuhuhu.

Right now, im in the middle of putting together a manual for CCIS and CCTech that will serve like a book for my students. as if the lay-outing and editing jobs are not enough…harhar. but im OC like that.

anyway, i resolve to go back to my blogging duties. to post something, no matter how shallow and lame, every single day.

also, im back to blogging here at i.Ph because i rarely visit my own personal site. and yes, there’s no place like home.

now im suddenly hungry. lolz.

I know you’re shining down on me from heaven

i type this post with tears in my eyes.

an old classmate way back in college passed away this morning of leukemia. her passing is so sudden, that the moment i heard the news, my whole world stopped.

charlotte…i remember her as the OC groupmate in class projects who always gets things finished with perfection… she became a close friend for sometime until we all went our separate ways when it was time to face the real world…

i’ve never seen her in years…but the memories spent with her, of our crazy and fun college days remain vivid…

ive never seen her in years, that news of her passing awakened an ache in my heart, a longing to be able to talk to her even for just a moment…or maybe just glimpse her or touch her for a second…

she will always be in my prayers…

CHARLOTTE AUBREY BENIGNO MAXIMO

December 22, 1983- May 2, 2008
 

you will be missed…take care care, my dear friend…

(photo taken from her friendster and multiply account) 

wooohooo im back! (ampff cant even think of a better title)

eeeep! my last post was April 5! and its now…uhhmmm…April 26…uh yeaaahh…blech

a lot happened. if by some miracle that you still manage to drop by a few times, you’d notice that my previous posts for the past few weeks or so consists of open letters, song lyrics, incoherent-drunken-state entries, incoherent-hangover-state entries and full of shiteous excuses, excuses and more excuses.

oweh. higlights? i turned 25on the 14th! wooohoooooooooo! i celebrated it by going to work early lugging homemade palabok to feed my hungry officemates…proceeded to work on geeky stuff (its a freakin’ monday my birthday! ampff) then ended the day panic-driven and fucked up the sliding doors of our office because Andok’s was on semi-fire. Andok’s restaurant which is located just below our building. Andok’s restaurant that smogged our whole floor. but it was all very anti-climactic. Before we can even leave the building, with the sirens ringing over our heads, us choking in smoke and confused as to what direction we’ll run to, the fire department declared the fire over. pfffffttt. total fire phailure if you ask me. but with a local mall on fire just a week before and University of Baguio torched a month before, everyone is in panic mode. 

so what else? oh yeah. my domain is now filled with cobwebs and dust. i was able to tranfer my archives and that’s it. lame.

things is, im up on my elbows with work. its that overused excuse bt i just realized that i spend more time in front of the computer with a working internet connection than lying down in bed. amppfff i wanna blog more.

okay im suddenly at loss of words. its a saturday. sunny saturday afternoon. im at the office on my rest day. yech.

more to come! 

you oughta know

its a saturday. i woke up at 2pm. i wanna go back to bed…

 so yeah, went out again the night before. i had a relapse a few days before. i convinced myself that i could go on with this week without breaking down. 

who was i kidding? so i went out last night and drowned myself.

not cute.

obviously im in no position to write a coherent entry. so here’s an open letter.

dear you,

I want you to know, that I’m happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I’m sure she’d make a really excellent mother

And I’m here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It’s not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

sincerely yours,

me

*yeah this is the complete lyrics of Alanis Morisette’s You Oughta Know hit…its just perfect…ok il go drown myself again..tomorow’s a sunday anyway.

in need of vodka tonic and then some

i haven’t posted in a while. there was work (which is nothing new since im a self-confessed workaholic) and there was the holy week (which was spent drinking/sleeping/eating/more sleeping) and there was my new domain (which is giving me mini migraines everytime i try to finish tweaking it)…so yeah, i haven’t posted in a while.

Let a thousand flowers bloom: The 2008 Panagbenga Streetdancing Parade

yey! so don’t mind the uber-mushy post i just posted the other day. let’s move on to more happier times. bleh.

i spent the whole saturday morning cropping and resizing and editing the pictures the bebe took from the 2008 Panagbenga Streetdancing Competition. so yup, there were tons so i had to choose the best looking shots and figure out how to group them in an artisitc and organized manner. 

and yeah, im still on the painful process of tweaking/edtiing/transferring files to my new domain so i might be blogging here for one more week or so…im having migraines…yech,

anyways, here are pictures! im still working on the Float Parade pix…enjoys! lolz  ^__^ 

the inevitable has come

only two people would understand this entry. but im posting it anyway. i had to let it out.

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no more drinking. no more sleepless nights. no more crying under the sheets while listening to Regina Spektor’s Samson on repeat. no more staring at nowhere during long cab drives. no more too much overtime at work to keep my mind busy.

my life was turned upside down, over and beyond for the past three weeks. it was one hell of a rollercoaster ride…i knew that that one decision i made during that time would change everything. i knew that i had to hold on tight as the rollercoaster zooms through the highs and lows. it was the happiest ive felt in years, stuck in a commitment that ive gotten used to. a commitment that is synonymous to a routine, something you do everyday that whatever excitement it has in the past seemed to have faded along with the years that has gone by. the rollercoaster ride made me realize two things…

first, i can be happier if i allow it.

second, love is never enough.

they lied when they said that love makes the world go round.

im in a moment right now where im honestly hard up on focusing my mind because im suddenly overwhelmed with emotion. my brain is nowhere to be found…and my heart has full control of me…

honest to god, im scared. i want to hold on to that flicker of hope, but what if that hope changed its mind and decided to fade away as well?

ive put my heart on my sleeve shamelessly. ive believed on promises i knew won’t be kept. i hoped…god that’s the worst part…ive hoped…

i knew everything was to good to be true…

all good things must come to an end…

the happy is ready to move

yey finally have my own domain! and its free! FREE! more yey!

***hugs to kharl**** 

and now, amidst work, i had to squeeze in editng and tweaking and transferring my archives and uploading!

update your links!

www.happysarah.net

 but its still under extreme constuction…wehehehe…it will be a week or two beforeits gonna be up and running.

and besides, i have yet to post my Panagbenga pix! bleh…

T.T 

the i loves vodka part 2

the last time i got so plastered was sometime last december.

ive just finished conducting two simultaneous 2-hour call center career orientations amidst a throbbing headache and sore throat.

gawd i can still taste the vodka i had last night.

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so it was a saturday night and the last streetparty for the Panagbenga Session in Bloom. i downed a couple of screwdrivers and sipped on nalet’s margarita while dancing to new wave music. we then proceeded to a bar where i downed more vodka tonic. i was so stressed out from working i decided i will get wasted since i wasn’t able to do that last week. 

and i did.

and it doesn’t feel good right now.

yech. 

shawarma is my secret lover

the following post was written while i was sitting last tuesday in our booth waiting for 6pm to roll in. today’s already saturday. bleh.

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its 5:30pm and its raining and its freaking cold. and im sitting here at our booth. Its the Session in Bloom, the third of the three main events for the Panagbenga (Flower Festival). Its when they close the whole stretch of Session Road to make way for food stalls, arts and crafts booths, face painting and henna tattooing, bar and resto caterings and endless free concerts and street parties. for one week. i love.

i almost killed myself trying to get a permit for our own information booth. thing is, the big boss had second thoughts about putting up a both cuz the fee is ridiculously expensive for a 1-week stint. but since we badly need to do this marketing move, she agreed in the end…when the application for booths at the Panagbenga Secretariat is already done and over. i had to resort to asking our building administrators to let us open a booth infront of the building since we’re their tenants anyway. so a mere 5 days before the Session in Bloom opens, i was able to get a contract, lay-out and printed the tarps and flyers and Panagbenga-themed bookmarks (freebies) to be used. i drew blood. cut my finger while cutting flyers. yech.

but now, im actually enjoying myself. enjoying the sights, sounds and smells.

im on the my third chicken and beef shawarma, watching a gaggle of koreans oerusing over items sold at the crafts store while i listen as some guy painfully belt out a lovesong for a singing contest sponsored by a local radio station. 

its still 5:30pm. its still raining. and its still freaking cold.

***

have tons of pictures. have no time to upload and edit…yet. pictures next week promise! 

panagbenga rant part 1

today is Day 2 of the Panagbenga 2008 Grand Parades. Yesterday was the Streetdancing Parade and today is the Parade of Floats. yey. *snicker*

i decided to take the day off yesterday. woke up around 10:30am to catch the Streetdancing parade on live television almost over. good thing the bebe was there to take pictures so il have some to show later. its his job to take the pictures so teehee, i get to lie down while he has to fight with crazy revelers who are envious he gets to watch the parade close up.  

and today is the Parde of Floats (quite similar with Pasadena’s Rose Parade). i need to come to the office to make sure everythings’s in place for our booth opening tomorrow when they close Session Road for a week. i don’t ned to be in the office until 9 but i decided that i would not get caught in a web of people clamoring to watch the parade at 8am. i was walking all bundled up (a sweater and a jacket and a muffler) at 7am praying to the high gods that the float parade was cancelled or atleast moved to a later time since its drizzling and all. but hell no. i was 20 paces to session road when all i see are hordes and hordes of people all stuck together trying to be warm amidst the typical morning baguio climate with that bonus sprinkler. i put my ipod to loud and braved the crowd. from the normal 15 mins brisk walk, it took me almost 45 mins just to reach our office building. i listened to Lily Allen while i shoved and pushed myself through the horde.

im so over Panagbenga.

im just looking forward to Session in Bloom, to our information booth and getting to attract as much of our target market as possible.

btw, i might not get the chance to get wasted this weekend. sensiblity…err…work has taken over. maybe after.

teehee! 

i need to get drunk this weekend

my life is hectic right now. both professional and personal. its 2am and im just so freakin’ tired to elaborate so il be limited to using short phrases in my effort to explain things.

my professional life is a blur of tarpaulin and brochure lay-outs, costings, endless tension-marinated meetings, intermittent office dsl, endless printing of proposals and bitching over the boss calling at 10pm (oh.god.i.hope.the.boss.dont.read.my.blog.)

my personal life is………….omg i cant even find the correct words to describe it. oh yeah, it is a bad koreanovela. go figure.

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the 2008 Flower Festival celebration is nearing its climax. im gonna be having tons of pictures to show off. and tons of ranting. ack.

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 another open letter:

b,

why the sudden change? 

why the sudden attention?

why the sudden concern about eveything?

i thought you dint care if i was awake until 4am…or if i had eaten lunch when its already 3pm…or that we barely see or talk to each other…or that  we havent had a dinner date in months…

you’re suddenly confusing me.

me